Feeding this disease

 
Wake up in the morning, am I done?
Pick up my gun , do I use it on myself or continue to run.

So I am off again, living these dreams
Or is this a nightmare.
feeding this disease is not as easy as it seams.

On my way to recover some cash.
if he don't have it I will put a cap in his ass.

One more day , so tired of this game.
The pain and the lies puts a strain on my brain.

Running alone cuz I can't be trusted.
Just praying today I don't get busted.

My guts in a knot ,now I'm hunting for a fix.
If they say you need one I'm taking six.

One last shot,Found me some dope.
hoping it lasts cuz I just can't cope.

The screaming in side , just getting louder.
Little more then , diluting the powder.

Shits just not working , I still feel the pain.

Two more then as I load the up the pins.
Calm now as its Erasing all my sins.

Chills all through my veins .
death now releasing my pains.

Or will I live to do this again, living in dreams.
Feeding this disease is not as easy as it seams.