You see?

Maybe I was too ugly
or was I too cuddly?
Maybe my performance in bed
was just so hopelessly bad.
I believed in my heart
and sure I failed hard.
Forcing you to go get heal
following you caring still.

It all seemed so fine to me.
You were saying sweet words to me.
And letting me get close to thee.
But in lying so good are thee.
Sweetly typing me to come asap
and when I came to you asap
"Whatever"
That is the word what I hear
and that is what you feel.

Coming to my bed drunk.
Then like a wasp stung.
Saying "I was bored so
I came to you, you know".

Trying to hold hands
well without chance.
Asking you "So now kiss?"
Hearing "What snow kiss?"
Are you so stupid?
Or are you blind?
What is in your mind?

When you cry alone I try to
as much as I can comfort you.
Hearing from you only
"You do not even care"
it feels so lonely.
All I can do is just stare.

I remember when you recorded
yourself for me when you sang
a song and at the end whispered "Sorry".
And I said to you smiling "Do not worry".

But that was before this...
You again messed it up.
Hurting me downside up.
But that was before this...

I wonder what I did so wrong.
I know that I must be strong.
But still is the problem in me?
Or is it just in cute lovely thee?
People to me are nothing new
but none of them treated me
so much like a trash as you.
I was here for you... you see?