My Beautiful Angel with her Sinister Smile..

I have kept it all bottled inside..
Secretly I think your trying to hide... 
From Me, the one who would be the last to hurt the girl...
I self-destructively fell for... 
Can't let you go...
Your branded in my mind in other words I think about you all the time...
Can't say why, You cross my Mind...
Because..
Your reaction may not be Kind..
I said "I was over you"...
That was anything but true...
Wanted to make you feel jealousy for all that you've done to me..
To gain pleasure from your misery...
Mixed Emotions, Conflicting inside me about my Feelings for You..
My Muse..
Don't hold back? 
Speak my mind? 
How can I? 
As I let out a sigh I lie to your pretty pale face... 
Can't put it into words..
Don't want to..
I don't want to because that might ruin my chances of being with you...
What's the point? 
No commitment... 
I understand it scares you..
But you are my muse...
Fantasies of your hands touching me.. Me beating you for my own sexual pleasure..
My anger and rage in every slap in every bite.. 
Hope I'll be fucking you tonight...
Your beauty means so much to me.. Your beauty shines.. 
Blinding my eyes...
My Beautiful Angel with a Sinister Smile..
Your Mind..
It's Dark.. 
Morbid...
CRAZY!
I love it..
You blow my mind.. 
Be mine.. 
Even though you aren't always kind... 
I have a hope, no.. 
A dream of you on top of me making me scream...  
Scream your name, no fucking game....
I know you want my screams echoing so it lingers in your mind... 
My Beautiful Angel with her Sinister Smile..