Keeping it in

 I'm so confused
I feel like breaking down
into small pieces
holding in my tears
because I don't want you to see me breakdown
I try to understand your logic
but I can't and it kills me
your mind is a whirlwind
if you knew what I was thinking
I do believe you might be shocked
so much pain
I hate this so much
screaming echos from my throat
can I just break something?
Other than my own heart
I keep my feelings from you because
you won't understand them
I'm so scared and it makes
me wanna cry out loud
running away is what he will do
I want to hold onto you and cry
tell you everything I'm holding onto
sadly I can't because you can't even hear my silent cries
I want to just sit beside you and let you in
hear me out hear my cry
hear my pain
feel it
taste it
the confusion hits me hard
its killing me slow to hold all of this in
I need to explode
I'm crashing down
down the wrong path