A Fake Smile

I walk in the hallway, waving to my peers, tryin to hide my tears, I place upon my face the darkest of fake smiles, my fake smile fools many people, it's a tool I've learned a few years back, people dont want to see a depressed kid or a kid who never a smiles or has any emotion, so I fake my attitude and my smiles, behind my smile is pain, fear, depression, and hurt. But no one will ever know, what lies behind this smile, I'm just an ordinary "prep" as they would call me. But they never know what I feel 90% of my time. Life has no meaning to me, I don't understand why I'm still here. These smiles keep my problems hid from the world, who would ever guess a "happy" kid like me would feel this way. It's so easy to hide theses fake smiles. I place my pain I hide, onto myself, leaving scars upon my arms, I wear jackets hiding everything, I place the fake smile upon myself and I live my life as normal as I can.