alone ?

(My eyes are cold,
My heart closed.
My mind confused,
It's been too long since I've felt this pain.
Wishing for everything to make sense,
Wishing to forget everything.
Or make it all right.
I can't go on this confused,
I can't go on this unhappy.
I can't continue being this alone.
What am I supposed to do?
Will it hurt all over again?
SHould I open my heart back up,
Or leave my doors closed.
Save myself the pain,
Save myself the hurt.
Save myself the torment of losing it all over again.
i love u so much shelley kay please dont hurt me