What is Too Much?

I take the pills and the more pills
give blood and get blood
i.m so tired i can't sleep
i can't eat it not that i don't
love you because i do but the
pain is always the pain
I can't take it anymore
so they want to give me more pills
well i will take all of them and then
maybe i won't feel the pain anymore
what pain? Why is it burning?
i can't feel anything anymore
don't despair don't be sad
i will be ok it working the pills
have kicked in i feel no pain
i don't feel anything i am going
away to be in a better place.
Heaven? or Hell?