Temporary Cure

"I will soothe your pain
I will make it all okay.
I will make you happy."
That's what they told me coke would do.
I will fuck your life up
I will ruin you
I will make you suffer
That's what coke actually did.
Sure, it numbed me from the pain.
But in the end, I knew the pain was still there.
What was the cure?
How much pain could I endure?
The pain of being abused,
The pain of being abandoned.
The pain of being raped.
I thought coke was my cure,
Turns out that the pain from that was much, much worse..