Lost-unedited

life is lost to meaning
my awakening is my daily despair
my dreams are long lost for reasons unknown
hope for my child is all that remains
I am dispaired and my pain grows daily
Long ago were dreams of a full happy life
my child is my savior but for what future
life is bereft of happiness or desire
Only the momments of her presence lifts my heart breifly
My child deserves to be born from a better man
only I may give in to my end
she is alive and I love her...so I linger
I am waiting....I always wait...
heaven and hell take turns with my soul
my punishment is life