Stairwells and Feelings

He sits there in the stairwell
Crying softly as he speaks
The pain of separation
Has finally hit its peak..

I feel anger towards my parents
Pain in knowing simple facts
Like how I used to make him smile
And how he would make me laugh.

I know I shouldn't want to care
I know I should just cry
But all that I can think about
Is how life just passed me by.

I almost felt invisible
Intangible at best.
Like he became so much of me
That he took me when he left.

I know what this poem sounds like
Just another pity party for one.
But that's not it at all because
He'll see this when I'm done.

It is my way of telling him
What I couldn't then.

I love him
More than life itself
Even in the end.

I want him to be happy and
If that's not with me
Then I do understand.

Our relationship was good
11 months down to the day.
We had our ups and downs
I don't know what to say

I'm sad it had to end
But at the same time I still hope
Not only that we'll still be friends
But that we'll both learn how to cope.

I know I can't prevent some things
Other relationships and friends.
But as long as we still talk
It doesn't matter in the end.

I'm happy when I see him smile
No matter what the cause.
We both need time, I understand
We're only human after all.

Just know I love you very much
And my mind will be at rest..