Breaking Chains

I don't know how to feel
is any of the past events even real?
is this only a dream that I will wake up from?
will the end soon come?
I'm just so unsure now
what if all this goes away somehow?
afraid to let myself be happy but I can't let any one see
how can I let him love me?
when I'm so afraid to trust that someone could actually love me again
am I fool to be afraid to believe him?
what if this is all just some sick joke that a guy like him could fall for me?
all I'm good at is screwing up and making mistakes can't you see?
I don't know how to explain my feelings right now
the only words that come even close is that I'm so very afraid somehow
I trust him more then anyone else
I just don't think I can trust myself
I want to believe that he could love me
but if I did and he left like all the rest where would I then be?
my heart is trembling from my fear
it's all in my mind and no one can save me here
I will break these chains and run far away
with this fear I refuse to stay
I don't know if he's the one
but with being afraid I am done
I want to love him it's true
and this fear in my head is keeping me blue
I don't want him to go
I want him to know
that I want to let him close, let him in
even if it means I might be hurt again
see I'd rather be hurt by Ranna then anyone else
I won't let my fear keep me by myself
he makes me want to break free
from the chains that I once let bind me
I love him enough to be strong for me
strong enough to let myself be happy
and even if he just turns out to just my best friend
I know for a fact I can always count on La Ranna in the end