Ossified with pain

Trying to channel my inner demons
wanting them to explain themselves,

I want to know why they wont leave my head
why does a ghost of a memory walk the halls of my mind

I am being held prisoner by my psyche
my brain is not my own

feeling possessed
feeling depressed

absolutely no one to confide in
I fall deeper into myself

as I fall I feel the ties of insanity tighten
I feel further from myself then ever before

pain becomes my friend no longer an enemy
I need it now, just to feel something, anything

emptiness consumes my ability to care
it eats away at my moral fiber

Becoming the monster that lives within
is easy, its the fight to keep me that's hard

tired out from to much inner dialogue
yet my mind still races

pulling the sides of my hair like a maniac
I stop because there is no point

the pain is intoxicating
the pain is my life