My Mind

Sometimes I feel trapped in my mind
Endless stream of thoughts and anxiety combined
I yearn to escape but then I tell myself I'm fine
Delusional drifts
A perpetual decline
In mental distress over things I can't control
Melancholy  
Can't help but keep and carry on  
I struggle and strive  
Can't help the person who's inside  
So I try to help others through conversation I provide  
Stuck all the time
If I escape where would I go?
Will I lose my mind?
I'd hate to say but probably so
There's no way to hide
You cannot run from what you're thinking  
I control my thoughts
Just as well as I do blinking
Cognitive dissonance
What position am I taking?
Conflicting beliefs  
I'm paranoid or either crazy
But still have those days when everything is going smoothly
I listen to music cause' it's the only thing that soothes me
In such discord
I'm trying to get my shit together
I believe if I can
I'd make the situation better