Lies

my feelings got hurt so many times by you
you told me lies
so many lies..i can't even remember them all
it hurts just to
my heart isn't a open door you can just invite yourself in every time you feeling bad about something you done to me or others
you put us threw so much pain..its hard to bear sometimes
i felt abandoned by you for a long time when i was growing up
i was sad when you wasn't there to see me grow
you made feel like you couldn't careless about me even though i was important to you...so u say
if you really love someone , you would fight for them  to be with them no matter am i right?
you didn't  you didn't even try
you say you forgot
or you say you was too busy or you was away
i wonder why the others didn't try to see me either
when you was there you never stay by my side for along
even if i did let you in I'm the one whose gonna get hurt not you...
it's me whose gonna cry my eyes out when you are here
when i hear your voice
feel your touch
you scare me sometimes
I ask myself every time I don't hear from you..why don't you want me????
sometimes i can't believe you or your lies
i don't know why you pretend to be this nice guy meanwhile you aren't that's not okay with me
i used to cry every time i got off the phone with you i cried to my savior
one good thing came from all this pain and agony someone who has always been there for me she loved me..she still does after all this time...she is my barrier..my protector..i just wanted to thank you for all things you have done for me