Thoughts

I'm Just Going To Express How I Feel..
So Here Is The Deal..
Every Night Before I Go To Sleep I Start Hopin..
That My Eyes Never Again Reopen..
This Is The Truth That Is Being Spoken..
People Thinking I'm Jokin..
But Everything Just Seems Like It's Beginning To Collapse..
My Mind And Body Beginning To Relapse..
So During The Day I Take Naps..
Hoping That My Eyes Stay Shut And Not See The Sky No Longer..
People Say Life Makes Us Stronger..
But My Life Is Making Things 10 Times Harder..
My Thoughts Are Beginning To Get Darker..
The Things That Are Running Through My Mind..
Are Thoughts I Want To Push Behind..
And Never Again Rethink These Thoughts I'm Thinkin..
But The More I Sit And Let Everything Sink In..
The Worse My Condition Will Become..
Sometimes Wishing My Body Will Become Numb..
Starting From My Toes And Ending At My Thumb..
I Wish I Knew Where These Thoughts Came From..
But It All Just Hit Me Like A Mack Truck..
Sometimes I Feel Stuck..
And Start To Think Fuck..
Why Does My Life Have To Suck..
But I Ask Myself Questions And Get No Response..
So At Times I Act Nonchalance..
And Act Like Everything Is All Good And Fine..
But Only If They Knew What Was Running Through My Mind..
Well I Just Needed To Get This Off My Mind And Chest..
But Not To Make It Easier To Rest...
Or Try And Relieve Stress..
Cause No Matter What I Do My Mind Would Be A Mess..
So I Guess..
This Was Just To Get It Out In The Open..
I'm Being 100% Real With This Don't Think I'm Jokin..