Deep Thinker Who Values Connection Over Intellect

Since I've been with two people, Mike and Josh, this year. I want to compare the differences between them and why Josh made me feel safe and connected and Mike didn't.

Mike always talked about the end times and deciphering who the end times prophet was. We talked about theories about spirituality and the Christian doctrine. We always had deep thinker conversations about anything and everything.

But it felt empty. It felt empty because it was all talk based on fear and empty knowledge.

For he can know all the knowledge in the world, but if he doesn't have love, he's has nothing. Got that from The Bible, but it still resonates here.

I loved how Josh once held me in his arms, telling me, "We're not gonna talk that deep thinker stuff." Making me feel safe and like a girl giggling over a cute boy.

Yes, I'm a deep thinker, but I want someone to just be with me. We can have deep talks at times, but if it's too much, it feels more like a lecture I'm attending than an actual guy making me feel all those things any girl wants to feel- happy and safe. I want Josh because he's humble and sweet.

And he's irreplaceable despite what dating makes us feel like these days- disposable.

That doesn't mean I'll be possessive about it like Mike made me feel with his toxic behaviors. Josh knows I'm a sweet girl deep down. He must know I'd never want to hurt him.