Why I Quit 4 Year College

Onto another subject. Because I need a temporary break sometimes from talking about my twin flame. While I no longer shy away from the need to process, I understand the importance of acknowledging other parts of my journey. Because trust me, there are many, and one has to do with something many people pursue.

For many, college is essential. It is the backbone of their success in careers and making necessary connections.

For me, it is not. College has long overdue its purpose in my life.

My college history started right after I graduated high school. I was like any other student, thinking college was necessary for my growth and education. I started out trying to major in accounting. I'd grudgingly do homework and make good grades until it came to intermediate accounting. That I made a D in. My true colors were showing, my interest was waning. I was secretly writing fanfiction about Link and Zelda on the side to subdue my boredom. It didn't help that my teacher was an asshole who yelled at me to the point of me crying and no longer wishing to ask for help anymore.

Past that point, I was done. And due to my boyfriend Kyle's encouragement, I changed my major to English, thinking I could be a teacher. But after he broke up with me, I changed my major to Business. Got my associates in Business at a community college. Then, my encounter with Josh changed the entire trajectory of my life. After having to take a year off of school for the intense heartbreak, I changed my major back to English. Was a junior before I quit for good last year.

I remember being on the phone with a school advisor who was discussing my plans for enrollment. And I remember fading out of the conversation, realizing that the traditional path of school isn't for me. I was a great writer, and I knew this. I was a great artist in drawing and could learn animation on my own. I could start my own author and music entertainment storytelling business all on my own. I believe in my abilities now.

School expects you to learn at their pace when I wish to learn on my own timing. It is beyond stressful doing school, and I hate the structured aspect of it. I hate how it stresses me out to no end. How by the end of the year, my arms and legs are trembling. I'm not really learning when I'm in school. I'm fighting for the grade. There is no creative thinking.

Also, I have zero capacity for thinking or talking impersonally. School naturally wants me to shy away from hard, authentic conversations, and I just don't have the patience for it. Not my cup of tea. I have no capacity for the normal world because in the normal world, I'm supposed to suppress my authenticity, and I just can't. It's impossible and doesn't promote healing and growth. Art will. A normal job won't.

It's my path now because I believe in my art becoming successful. And I'm going for it. I believe in my inner voice. School will only make me lie to myself that if only I had a little more of this knowledge, or a little more of that, I'll be successful.

No. I have it, and I'm gonna win.