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Checking In
You came by unannounced,
finding my doorway dark.
You knocked, anyway ~
loudly
and repeatedly,
until I had no choice
but to let you in.
You tell me I look tired ~
am I getting enough sleep?
You don’t wait for an answer,
which is just as well;
I don’t have the one you want.
You definitely don’t want to hear
about the nights I’m laying awake
thinking of all the ways there are
to disappear and be forgotten.
Your animated voice
bounces nervously on your lips
before jumping, landing somewhere
between my ears and neck;
I can’t stop staring at your nails.
I also have no idea
what you’re talking about now,
I’m too busy
pulling your words apart
like sticky pages;
I watch them drip on your silk shirt;
down, down they ruin your intentions.
The thing I’ve learned (the hard way)
about gooey platitudes
is that they taste so good
it’s easy to forget
they are devoid of nutrition;
I watch them all spill from your mouth.
They leave me fat and starving.
I feel irrationally angry.
I want to tell you to go away,
but you won’t until I absolve you,
so I tell you I’m fine, really.
We both choose to believe me.
finding my doorway dark.
You knocked, anyway ~
loudly
and repeatedly,
until I had no choice
but to let you in.
You tell me I look tired ~
am I getting enough sleep?
You don’t wait for an answer,
which is just as well;
I don’t have the one you want.
You definitely don’t want to hear
about the nights I’m laying awake
thinking of all the ways there are
to disappear and be forgotten.
Your animated voice
bounces nervously on your lips
before jumping, landing somewhere
between my ears and neck;
I can’t stop staring at your nails.
I also have no idea
what you’re talking about now,
I’m too busy
pulling your words apart
like sticky pages;
I watch them drip on your silk shirt;
down, down they ruin your intentions.
The thing I’ve learned (the hard way)
about gooey platitudes
is that they taste so good
it’s easy to forget
they are devoid of nutrition;
I watch them all spill from your mouth.
They leave me fat and starving.
I feel irrationally angry.
I want to tell you to go away,
but you won’t until I absolve you,
so I tell you I’m fine, really.
We both choose to believe me.
Published 9th Dec 2024
| Edited 12th Dec 2024
Author's Note
Peak of my current manic episode.
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9th Dec 2024 3:07am
9th Dec 2024 3:51am
9th Dec 2024 4:00am
Dear L,
The vulnerability mixed with apathy in this piece rings so real for me. It made me think of saying what needs to be said and over with so I can be left alone. There is such grace and beauty to your sharing that is a true treasure.
H🌷
The vulnerability mixed with apathy in this piece rings so real for me. It made me think of saying what needs to be said and over with so I can be left alone. There is such grace and beauty to your sharing that is a true treasure.
H🌷
9th Dec 2024 4:14am
Brilliant honesty.
I love "pulling your words apart like sticky pages" and "leaving me fat and starving"
I love "pulling your words apart like sticky pages" and "leaving me fat and starving"
9th Dec 2024 7:15am
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10th Dec 2024 3:13am
I like the metaphorical language. I can feel the angst and the pain, it's hard to ignore.
Good one.
Good one.
10th Dec 2024 10:37pm
Hang in there
all the DUP community. are here for you
Just reach out and believe in yourself because your mind can control when it wants to.
Your brain is in control and can stop your mind from hijlacking your thoughts.
You have the ability
Believe
:)
all the DUP community. are here for you
Just reach out and believe in yourself because your mind can control when it wants to.
Your brain is in control and can stop your mind from hijlacking your thoughts.
You have the ability
Believe
:)
12th Dec 2024 3:43pm
Brutal realities of liar and enabler. Been there too many times.
(1st word 2nd line spelling Findjng).
(1st word 2nd line spelling Findjng).
14th Dec 2024 4:33pm
"They leave me fat and starving." This is a strong visual and emotional line, the juxtaposition of what can be deemed as two opposites feels very frustrating.
Strong write Luna. I hope you're doing OK.
Thank you for sharing.
Strong write Luna. I hope you're doing OK.
Thank you for sharing.
