dawns

seductive numbness is unobtainable for me
I've exalted people and made them my idols
regain the truth there are no romantic facts
love is meant to be found
then lost to really understand pain

fictitious beast so dazzling to look at  
so comforting to rely on
synchronicity comes in and stirs the lust
true love is tested again and again

then it is taken away
perhaps it was never deserved
but a gift to be understood

cruelty I know you well
each of us are on a journey
memories of past lives flicker
delusional to think as such, maybe

sincere feelings inspired by my experiences
revenge perhaps for the destruction of a dream
wisdom not apparent in me

gentle and kind of hope
I thought I was a good person down deep
selfish and needful ways
this is my faith

rotating illusions I search the texts
I've looked into the abyss
the rebellion of the angels happened
there was a great war in the heavens
unsure how long ago that was
but Adonai hasn't forgotten

his dream taken from him
each of us had a part in that I think
even if it was just being terrified and hunkering down
this being the first war we saw

this causes me to pursue thoughts along the line
he may forgive one day but the penalty fits the crime
alienated I have felt his loneliness
different I have come to understand his need
dreams come true just to be snatched away
understanding dawns in a selfish mind