beautiful

loving you forever
though I sense you think I don't know
you don't feel beautiful
you can turn it on for the world
but you'll only get so close to me before you back off
I've felt this for a long time

it saddens me that you see yourself in a bad light
because really I don't care if you are a bad guy
but it hurts my heart the way you put yourself down internally
I feel your pain and I can't help how attached I am to you

my soul tells me things
I feel when you come close
and you are trying to be so covert
I can feel you

your sadness breaks me
you cloak yourself in shadows
but don't you know those shadows talk to me

you're afraid I will be disappointed
and that there are things that will shake me
but you're in my soul

really you're a lot like me
I have manifested low self esteem
no mattter how good I try to be
or how good I look
my bad feelings toward myself
will show on my body
it will show in my attitude

I don't know what you've suffered
because you conceal it so well
you always have to appear so suave for everyone
and you really are beautiful
but you come on confident then back off
and I can feel you questioning yourself

I believe I probably won't ever see you
because you don't want me to
we can talk your secrets are your's to keep