What Was I Thinking?

i met those emerald eyes
so many years ago
                                  yet
knew pretty quickly things
would become a shitshow
          (which it was)
                                  yet
hung on with all hope
and desperation of a
young & hopeless man

so i kept on trying
striving for better days
better times to be had

revealed the weakness
reveled in bleakness
                                yet
knew my time was limited
just needed an accomplice
                                yet
hung on, open heart
with sincerity, a desperate
portrait of a broken man

always, kept trying
striving for better days
...what a fucked up plan.