I love you I love you I love you

Why is this so emotional?
I know you’re still a text
Or call away

But

It feels like I’m losing you

And maybe that’s from my fear
Of abandonment
You even said yourself
You are not abandoning me
I know that
In my heart I know that

But my brain is still sad
And my eyes are still watery

While I hide
In my work bathroom

Crouched under the sink