You

days are blending into one again
the pattern is coming back
the rotting in bed
not eating enough or too much
pushing everyone away
its all here once again
suffer in silence
as you watch people drift away from you
the red is dripping but you cant tell anyone
feeling lost
whats the point?
days pass by you in a second
who are you?
you wish you had someone
act like you dont care when it bothers you most
try to end it all but fail
take as many pills as you can
yet still no one cares enough
you’ll never be an option
sob on the bathroom floors as everything physically hurts
your heart feels heavy
but who gives a damn
you’re mentally exhausted
but at least music temporarily fills the hole
but somehow learn
to try for yourself because in the end, thats all you have.