Submissions by ROZAA (Ro)

Maybe I’m tired
just a little
i’ve been living the same day
since i was a kid

Maybe I’m sick
probably a lot
I hate the way i am
always messing things up

Maybe I’m useless
no one could ever be proud of me
not even a little
i wish i could make you proud

Maybe things wont get better
should i just give up
and leave?
leave this earth?

Maybe I shouldn’t do this..
No, I want to do this
It’ll help!
Would they care if I was gone?

Maybe they’ll be happier
without me. ...

i sit here
on the cold bathroom floor
holding tears in my eyes
wondering
when will things get better?

i sit here
on the cooling grass
the moon is looking at me
maybe if i lay here
i’ll disappear
theres a storm in my head
lighting & thunder
i’m getting tired

i lay here
i see a shooting star
i close my eyes
to grant a wish
“help me so i dont give up”
do shooting stars even work?
this is useless
i can see the sun
in the corner of my eye

i sit here
looking...

im trying my best
why cant anyone see that?
im stressing
please just hug me

tell me it’ll be alright
tell me that your proud of me
please just notice
that im hurting so much
hopefully one day you’ll understand

im so lonely
i have no one to tell that too
im drowing
in the waves of my emotions

im crying so much
i cant stop
it feels like im screaming for help
but no one hears me
hopefully one day you’ll hear my screams

everything and anything
seems pointless
like my life ...

it sucks doesn’t it?
to be under the impression that
someone actually cared for you
i really fell for your lies
god was i foolish
how could i not realize
since the beginning
may of 2020
its almost been 2 years
im so attached
im such a idiot
how could i fall in love with the same guy as you
how could i ever open up about it
i miss you so goddamn much
but i don’t even know why
you laughed at me for crying
but i helped you when you were
I’ve wrote you paragraphs when you felt like killing yourself
but...