bittersweet memories (Lani)

1.  
Butch chick  
not my type  
pink mohawk and piercings  
maybe my type  
can be reassessed  
 
2.  
I was wearing a dress so short  
it was almost an open invitation  
to grab my ass  
 
3.  
You apparently liked my smile  
 
4.  
Sad drunk kisses  
on the dance floor  
you were trying to forget  
your dead girlfriend  
while I was just trying to feel alive
 
5.  
It didn't escape my attention  
that I'm a sadness magnet  
a temporary balm  
like aloe vera  
for broken hearts  
and we're kissing  
in the same club  
I took home a suicidal boy  
 
6.  
You weren't ready  
for someone new  
but I didn't care  
I was willing to wait for you  
cause I thought I felt a spark  
in the sadness of your mouth  
but maybe it was just beer  
and the lingering heat  
of cigarette smoke  
 
7.  
You were so easy to talk to
strung me along for over a month  
with promises and shared dreams  
that I thought for a second  
could be real  
because we clicked, right?
 
8.  
You said I made you feel dumb  
couldn't understand why a girl  
like me with my upper class vocabulary  
would be interested in a woman like you  
who needed things "dumbed down"  
your words  
not mine  
 
9.  
Said you were taking a trip
to see family back in New Zealand  
you'd call me when you got home  
 
You never did  
 
10.  
I left you messages  
I think you blocked my number