unlovable

unlovable
No joy today in my poetry,
Unlovable to you I should be
In the evilness you should see
A man minus integrity
I never told you a lie
Today it  feels deceptive
I should  be  irrelevant
If i would say  
The sky is blue
Why ,
Why should you think
Of what i speak
never I meant to deceive
My own lie I did believe
Now look and see
I almost lost you in the forest
Among the tree
Honestly,  the deceit was in the leaves
Tomorrow  I plant a sapling  
One that you can affirm
One that will shade you
Protect you from the heat
 the truth has found me
Please find me worthy  
the love that can be