unfillable void

     
     
     
    a living, breathing, organism who needs food, shelter, and community to survive.... the truth is eery and can't be denied;    
 most days going forward- I'd like to hurry up and die-because what's more both hard to accept and "scarier" than "death" is what it means to "survive"- those "ticking" moments on the way there when one's "alive"....    
     
  sickness, shortness of breath, the lonliness.... the unfilliable void.... reminders of what's to come....