I'm still hurting...

I am a human being.
 
I wear my heart on my sleeve,
  I often get taken advantage of by greed.
 
 People with needs they cannot fulfill themselves.
 
While I put my own feelings up on a shelf.  
   Despite spending years in a loop,
       where I was constantly drowning
          and saving my self.
 
So sick of this shit.
 
Remember that Nice little girl,
  that used to take every hit.  
 
I remember Every single bit of it.
 
Every lie and manipulation tactic.
  Had me searching for my worth,
    as if I had lost it.
 
There's no need to guess who caused it,
   This is just me finally cleaning out my closet.
 
I too am a human being,  
   and yet they question my frustration.  
    Left me doubting that I have a chance
        for salvation.
  
Fully convincing me of my own eternal damination.
 
Denying that I have a right to feel hurt.  
   When I've spent all of my life going  unheard.  
 
It's completely absurd.
    How could I watch my own soul burn
        in the flames that you started?  
 
Giving you the power to make me broken hearted
 will never happen again.
 
Unfortunately for me,
  It's not as simple as forgive and forget.  
 
I am a human being.