I Wish They Would’ve Chosen Me

I wish they would’ve chosen me
But instead they’d chosen you
I was left at home with no one to play
I had nothing there to do

You left and went off to the park
The toy store and the mall
You came back with bags of showered gifts
So much almost made you fall

All the times that you would spend the night
I lay lonely, sad, and blue
Couldn’t help but wonder why I stayed
I wanted so to be with you

You slept over on the weekends
And I never came along
You were gone before I made it home
Wondered what I did so wrong

I wish they would’ve chosen me
But instead they’d chosen you
Never got to be my sister
They had so much planned for you

I would often sit outside and wait
Hoping you would get dropped off
The darkness came and I went in
Sat to wait for you to call

Hate the way that my life was back then
The years forever fucked up my mind
I was never good enough to go
The ugly girl always left behind

You were doted on by just about everyone
For the one thing that I lacked
Your beauty and your vibrant soul
This curse will always set me back

I wish they would’ve chosen me
But instead they’d chosen you
The day you disappeared from me
At a party that they threw

Some guys decided to start talking to you
You were drinking and you fell
They took you around the corner
To a place that only you had known too well

I watched it all in silence
As they took you for themselves one by one
I noticed how you closed your eyes
Waited for each one of them to be done

You didn’t cry or act real scared
As they took it all in stride
You made me promise not to tell
’Cause of a secret you had to hide

I wish they would’ve chosen me
But instead they’d chosen you
I look back and want to take your place
All the shit they put you through

I think that I was destined to be
Psychologically impaired
There is no use in the both of us
For all the years you were so scared

A little girl that grew up too fast
In her own uncle’s bedroom
Think of all the times he held your hand
Leading you to meet your doom

I look back and know that I can’t change it
I can only wish it weren’t true
I wish they would’ve chosen me
But instead they’d chosen you