Mindlessness

The intrusion of my thoughts  
have placed alerts on high  
for my body wants to kill itself  
as my mind begins to die..
 
My mental health Is failing  
by the thoughts inside my head  
The race is never ending  
but worse when I'm in bed..
 
Paralyzed depression  
has me rooted in this spot
Due to all the broken thoughts  
that turn my mind to rot..
 
Lost inside the chaos  
my bridge begins to break
but no one else can save me  
From this heart I ache..
 
This black hole now resides  
inside my deepest thoughts  
will I ever move again  
or will this be my plot..
 
I've lived a life of madness  
for far too many years  
I thought that I would drown
Lonely in my tears..
 
I'm placed inside of emptiness  
as I search to find a door
the light begins to fade above  
as obstruction starts to roar..
 
With mental health  
there's questions  
Of where did I go wrong  
truth is I had conditions  
I thought would keep me strong..
 
I scream aloud in silence  
as I grasp for words unknown
The fear that has controlled me    
now becomes my home..
 
Afraid to hurt the feelings  
of those who come along
How could I have lost myself  
and where do I belong..
 
I accept my sadness
as tears fall upon the floor
this pain I feel inside of me  
No longer I ignore..
 
I've made a bridge to carry  
all ideas of my heart  
when I start to built from scratch
no longer I depart..
 
Tiffany V Long
2.7.2024