The Garden Inside My Mind

   
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From darkness into light we are born  
only to return to darkness in our minds  
oh, the walls we build windowless  
separating us from life  
forever diminishing the light  
does a blind man think he's blind if he's never seen with eyes?  
we have been broken for so long we now think us whole  
a self realized disability  
we become prisoners inside our heads  
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Then one day a small bird flies in  
first shock and violation  
"get out, get OUT! you annoying little bird"  
"don't you dare poop on my hidden dreams and desires"  
the bird , curse it, chirps gayly and leaves a twig  
coming back day after day  
this happy bird drops a seed or leaf or flower petal  
"stop leaving trash you evil bird"  
I build my walls higher  
"Ha! let's see that feathered fiend get inside tomorrow!"  
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One day I wake to beauty surrounding me  
the little bird had built a garden inside my mind  
possessively I think 'my little bird'  
and can't wait to share my garden with her  
but my bird didn't return the next day and I curse  
"damn little bird, good riddance" I say  
knowing all along how much I want and need her  
angerly a want to rip out the garden  
but something always stops me from destroying this part of her  
finally I realize that love cannot be owned  
so I wait in the garden of my mind  
hoping this little bird returns