God Let Me Down

God let me down
So long ago
Before I knew
All I needed to know

Where was this God?
When I needed him most?
I was down on my knees
Prayed to him with eyes closed

Let me make the right choices
It was all up to me
I did what I did
No apology

Things that were good
They weren’t meant for me
I’m full of bad choices
I’m like a disease  

Now all I do  
Is try to find a way out
Looking and screaming
And searching about

Nobody knows
The journeys the tolls
It’s a living hell
And nobody knows

All that I do
Is wait for the day
They say that one day
The pain just goes away

When that God no one knows
Finally saves my soul
But there’s nothing worth saving
And I think that God knows

No one here to help me
Help me figure it out
And me I’ve no clue  
What it’s all about

God didn’t help me
Help me find my way
Now all that I want  
Is to just go away

Disappear and forget
My choices were wrong
Living here and regretting
Hope the end won’t take long

God didn’t give  
A fuck about me
He let me fuck up
Now I beg and I plead

Make me forget
All the damage I’ve done
I can’t let it go
“You owe me this one”