The other side of love .

When touch is all you need  but you’ve waited way too long and now it will make you bleed . So you carry on and avoid any closeness because you remember that’s where it all started . All full Of promise a love struck adrenaline junkie to consumed in a fuzzy bubble of a summers dream . You let your guard down and your senses too . You didn’t see further than him your life depended on his presence and his easy nature and arms that felt like home . Until truth came knocking on the door . Julia  was her name and she was a Mrs at that and everything came crumbling down . Funny how betrayal changes you . No matter how you feel you would never know now how to put your feelings in order . In fact you are happy to not feel at all . It’s your jail break from a prison built on nothing but lies .How could you have got it so wrong and that persecutes and torments way after the summer faded . Feelings feeling stupid when you thought you were above average intelligence yet you were so wrong .Trust and love become synonymous with everything that is unlawful almost a criminal act . How do you come back from that …… ?.