a personal something

What manner of mania has not been confessed by now, and yet still people judge, as if to prove that rewiring the brain for better habits will always be a challenge.

I know for me, it can often be tricky to willingly want to share my deepest self 'confessions'. Even if I truly wanted to, I usually don't. Sadly, there are some parts of myself that I've learned not to share with folks; an unfortunate hard lesson learned from crossing paths with random a-holes who pretend to be one thing after gaining my confidence, when in reality they ended up being the polar opposite. I guess that applies not just to online circumstances but in reality as well. I have picked myself up and dusted myself off, since... however that default of surrounding myself with walls, is still a go to.
Judgements will always take place, it's my fortitude to push past that and my fear that I'm hoping to better.

Thank you for sharing your insightful comments and for simply taking the time with me, MS.
I adore your thought process and deeply value your perspective.

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You make even the simplest of creations sound so profound. This poem makes me check my privilege. Thanks boo :)

You're a bastion of betterment and total fresh air, my dear.

I can't help but be truly psyched to have you back home with us!! Fuck yeah.

Returned appreciation and thanks, boo
(ha!)
xo

Haha thank you blue

I think this is the best poem you have ever written. It is so good I'm going to read it 10 times 😊 where do I even start - twisted wells of inspiration, a shard for myself. Masterpiece ❤️

My cup runneth over, dear lady.

I'm beyond humbled.
Thank you thank you.

-💙

I thank you for writing this truth that most of us share so eloquently.
You rock Lady Blue.

You're a gem, Mary


Lovely visit and much obliged for your kind words.
-💙

Looking deep within I often find pieces of my life I'm not happy with or like
Great read gorgeous looking within is a tough job to do
Love and light
Ron x

I am very similar my dear friend.

Those are the depths that is often avoid tackling, probably to my mental health detriment... lol. Thanks for bringing your understanding kindness, Ron

I appreciate you.  
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the glittering sunlight caught my eye ♥

Awww... thanks for seeing my glow, Hashman.

-💙

One day I want to write this good 🌼

Well that's just insanity.... my ink is elementary compared to your collegiate level stylings....


but thank you for that kindness, my lovely friend.
really.

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"collegiate level stylings..." 😂😂😂

I just knew that would make you chuckle.... ;) (despite it's truthfulness!)

Chuckle? More like ROTFL! 😂😂😂

Your kindness knows no bounds! 😅 💙

The we love we both share for poetry is very hot.  Keep on writing you strong beautiful smart sexy woman.

Thanks for feeling the words, Francisco.
Much appreciated.
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Boundaries are meant to help us feel better about our putting rulesvin place about how we're treated and how we communicate.

No one wants to say that they want something back for all the things they do, but....it does feel good to be appreciated.

Vulnerability is the new sexy. Always has been.

If vulnerability is the new sexy than I'm hoping to figure out how to be as sexy af on the page and be comfortable doing so...

Your point of view and truly valuable line of thought always gives me pause and makes me think about things in new eye opening ways.

I'm truly grateful for you, RT.
Thank you.
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It is terribly hard to write of something sooooooooooo ''fucking personal''. The pain resonates.    Sending you much love.  Regards, Robert.

Opening up fully and completely is difficult for me and often something I tend to shy away from. I think that it's healthy to randomly purge yourself of both the bad stuff and relish in the good... It's a baby step process for me to try to strip it all away, leaving the fleshiest parts on display...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me, Robert.
It's greatly appreciated

🌹B

'' nursing hearts and minds
into a version of salvation—
exorcism via blood and ink
carves itself, this
genesis of creation ''

relentless is the word
that comes to
mind

'' hope grasps complicated colors
in choiceless pure necessity;
from deep within
bevies of buried pain brew
from twisted wells of inspiration

personal ~ so fucking personal  ''

once again...Damn!!

Ohhh my, how I loved your "Damn"....it made me smile from ear to ear...

Sometimes being relentless has its own rewards ;)


Adore seeing you 🦋
Thank you so much for the generous list add and for leaving me your thoughts.
-💙
x

I'm hoping to figure out how to be as sexy af on the page and be comfortable doing so....

There was a community spirit about this point here years ago. Those who have been here a decade can easily remember the writings we did together as writing partners to write out an idea as a negotiation on paper.

The process integrates real time experiences into the subconscious.

Both writers working through a literary cosplay, each only plays part.

And the level of vulnerability required in the writing is mutually consented to in a negotiation.

Name your own volumetrics. The poem that results can be bi-posted to share the acknowledgement of the process.

I still see some peoples's use of this method....it can be very interpersonal. I still write weekly or more to and we now share 2 million words.

Interpersonal.

I bet having those kinds of writing experiences really betters your abilities not only as a writer but as a human being.... period. To me those are potentially the beginning steps at embracing the feeling of vulnerability; struggling with that openness, even with a person online, even with everything pre-negotiated, is still a huge leap of faith...

How did you enjoy that process and do you feel it's beneficial for someone interested in challenging themselves??

asking for a friend... (har har)

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me, C
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Yes it takes courage to put our feelings out there for the world to read. I think after a while we get used to it and build thick skin. It’s totally relatable , thinking if last things (I sometimes cringe at myself) but there’s nothing wrong Lee we can do but move forward.

Nicely done

I think that the 'safe cover' I get from being able to publish online is a little sigh of relief at times. Some of my poems are simply accessing a time in my life that's not easy to share but always feels better when I do... It can get better, publishing that difficult dark stuff but there's times for me where it still feels as hard or even harder than it did the first time. I take it all in stride... My vulnerability thermometer is broken... hahaha.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Walter... it's truly appreciated and much welcomed
🌹 B

I'm curious to where you were sitting when you wrote this.  It makes me think of stairs, for some reason.  Obviously, it has a lofty sense to it, yeah. But I am wondering what you stared at, as you thought of this write.  The compulsion. It has a driving purpose, of moving forward.  
 Very interesting write,  Susan.  Intriguing.
And yes, well done of course.  
Of course!

Thanks, Mark... I appreciate your thoughtful comments; it's always nice to see you 🦋

(When writing, I was sitting on my screened back patio while it was raining, btw...)

Just letting you know that if you're an Amazon prime member, there's the big Prime Day sale in July on the 11th and 12th, if you're needing to stock up on hurricane supplies. I've decided that I am going to get a portable power station, so I figured I'd wait to see if there's one on sale there, during those days... Thought I'd share because they have great hurricane prep stuff!! 👍🏻  

Be well and stay safe out there.
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you know far i go in a purge
maybe too far
im sure its uncomfortabe to read
at its rawest

this why i find my drawn into it
its easy to look away
harder to dive in to that darkness
bring out a part of you

It's an ability of yours that I wish I had a little more of; meaning when you purge so completely... yeah, sometimes it's difficult to read but life is fucking difficult sometimes, too... That raw truth of it, is stunning.  

It's absolutely harder to dive in to the darkness or even the unpleasant... It's not supposed to ALWAYS be about writing love sonnets and eroticism... It's hard because it's painful but it's worth exploring, reconciling and fully understandingand it, so you can 'set it down' and put it to rest, once and for all... (is the hope)

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, you know how much it means to me... I really do appreciate it, Colin

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Sweet jazz music from the speakers serenades me as your words take me deep into the heart of what confessional emotions come from personal revelations. You really took me there tonight. I felt this so deep my heart pounds. And I am always mesmerized by your endings. This one really moved me beyond all belief.

Much love,
John

I can almost hear the jazz tinkling away.... Mmmm, how it infiltrates the soul. You were missed, my dear.

It's a lovely vision, imagining your evening. I can't thank you enough for including me. I look forward to reading and seeing you around the DUP watering hole. Glad you're back.

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-Susan