Blood Moon Reflections

I moved back into my old head
But someone reversed the floor plan
Things are the same as they’ve always been
Backwards but right where I left them
I want to stay here but I can’t
I don’t remember why it used to make sense

I sleep enough and exercise
Sometimes I even socialize
So why do I still want to die

Burned out from my feelings
I’m dead and sleeping in the dark
Nothing has a meaning
So flip the switch and reset my heart
I need a new lightbulb in my head
How many people will it take to make me feel alive again

The purple is seeping through the walls
Everything’s changed and it’s all my fault
I don’t know if this is better or if I’ve gotten worse
Self sabotage is still self care
When I keep all the doors locked
I don’t remember why I used to like it here

I want to cry but I can’t
I hate who I am
I’m sinking and it doesn’t scare me
And that scares me
No one knows the problem exists
Nothing’s wrong I’m just selfish