Something In My Heart

Something in my heart broke the day I realized I fell for someone I couldn’t have,
Something in my heart fell apart when I saw the one I wanted to be with flirting carelessly with someone else,
Something in my heart started to feel empty as I couldn’t even understand why am I being hurt by the one I thought highly of.
Tell me why is it fair to hurt me when you made me so happy?,
when the moments you were there for me I felt less judged and less alone.
There was no feeling of loneliness whenever you were around me it was like as if whenever you spoke to me I was floating on a cloud hearing your voice, but now I’m in deep despair each time I think about how I’m not the one you want.
No matter how many times I try to get your attention whether it’s by flaunting my looks in front of you or by speaking to you anytime I’m available or try to be able to show you how much I appreciate you I fall on deaf ears around you as you’re blind to even see how much I care about you.
Something in my heart told me you didn’t want me but I was stupidly too hopelessly into you,
Something in my heart made me feel like I was being a fool for chasing after you,
Something in my heart made me realize you only had eyes for someone else.
It doesn’t matter how much try I feel as though I could never be as special as her as I’m invisible whenever she’s around.
I cannot compete,
I can’t be as perfect as her so I step back and watch you two together as there’s a storm cloud hovering over me as I try to hide my pain inside while feigning a smile on the outside.
I feel so numb yet somehow the pain manages to go right through me as tears stream down my cheeks as I wish to stop feeling tortured for wanting you.
But my inner self had to scream for me to not be weak as you won’t ever see me cry so with acting skills so good I could’ve won an Oscar and Golden Globe combined as I pretend I never had any feelings for you.
Something in my heart made me feel empty inside for you didn’t want me like how I wanted you,
Something in my heart made me realize I was a fool for being so good to you,
Something in my heart told me you were never ever gonna be for me.