Right Now...

Right Now, I lay here in my room, without you.
Right Now, I lay here in my room, alone, thinking.

Thinking, yup, something I should not be doing right now.
Now, right now. I want to die.

I feel like crying, right now, but I bottle it up.
That way everyone can keep saying that everything is alright.

Alright? Far from it.

Today I hurt myself, but that is normal.
Normal? Yeah, normal for me to hurt myself.

Myself, someone I absolutly hate.
I just want to die, right now, not any later.

I saw a quote today it said...
'Angel, so fair and so bright, please guard me tonight as I lay to sleep.'
I believe in Angels and I know I have a few, but I wish that they were angels of death, because I want to die.

Die? Yeah, why? What is it to you?
You won't care or miss me, in fact you told me to go and die.

I want to die, right now.
Right now, I want to see the red,
So I now, that when I lay my head down in bed,
I will not wake up because I will be dead.