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norovirus and other falsifications
I said it was the stomach flu.
I lied.
Because I can’t
with
people today,
and I can’t
with me today,
and today
I can’t, I can’t
I can’tcan’tcan’tncannnt
A loud sob-cry escapes me,
it's an ugly sound
my voice is hoarse and wet
the pile of tissues,
little parachutes of snot and regret,
both worth about the same
when it comes to it
stares at me from the floor
as I’m curled on top of the
quilted comforter
crying into a teal t-shirt
with a shark on the tit
while I try to process
more agony of my own making
fuck, I make that shit in bulk.
and it’s like
rabid rats chewing
their way out of my body
in the softest spots,
breeding along the way
to peel my fascia from my bones
and punch through the
layers of skin
simultaneously
from the gut,
the chest ,
the throat,
and from that space behind my eyes
where I see you
with me draped sideways
on your lap
while I ramble about
some bullshit
that absolutely has no
merit or meaning
but god… you felt like home
and I’ve always been homeless at heart.
So today I lied,
and laid under my
bridge to my personal hell
with my rats and my
sorrow and my fear
and my feckless fucking nature
none of it keeps me warm as
I curl up and fake-sleep,
shivering through
another bad round
of hitting refresh
praying against
something I asked for
So I lay unable to think,
as the teeth in my chest
scrape my brain,
as my dirty fingernails
dig furrows
into my own shoulders,
and sobs
grab my screams
like dream-catchers from hell
I said it was the
stomach flu.
But I lied.
I said I didn't
want to see you
right now.
I lied about
that too.
And vomit flecks at the back of my
throat when I think about
how far I let it all go
when I said …
what I said….
and I lied…
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