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LIFE...interrupted
Well, here we are together again
Although we've never officially been introduced...
you feel like an old friend
We seem to meet when things fall apart
in the world, in my life, my heart
so many feelings tumbling all over each other...
don't know where to really start
Even the beginning was dimming
Survivor of a predator's sinning
Carried that shadow of burden for years
Didn't know how to shake the fears and good God the tears
I drew to what I knew
Education, writing, advanced learning
the only quench to this insatiable yearning
to know more
Beyond what THEY teach
Beyond what THEY preach
But then I can't seem to forget-the sinning of that predator
playing over in my mind like a
never-ending movie projector
Flashbacks would catch me off guard in the middle of anything-
happy or sad
those haunting memories made EVERYTHING feel so damn bad...
AND, life goes on...
AND, I try to cope
And most times feel lost, lonely and like there's no hope
Relationships, kids, and other dynamics
Life, is a hell of a thing to happen to a person...lays shit on real thick...
All this stuff piling up, sends my thoughts rumbling
Can't think straight
I'm now existing NOT living
I'm really NOTHING
My mind, scattered
my LIFE battered
I arrived at the point where NOTHING really mattered
My existence is missing both rhythm and rhyme
To not exist sounds better
all I have to do is commit to a time
To end my life, is my solution
Put a permanent end to any evolution
At war with THIS horrible intrusion
Feelings of FAILURE that won't go away
what could possibly be the cause?
then,
WAIT, pause
and by PAUSE
I mean STOP
More feeling of doom and despair than NOT
How did I get to THIS place?
This unforgivable dark space
Where OVER and over and over again
I need to see DEATH'S face
This ain't no monkey on my back
this here is King Kong
Shaking me vigorously every day
all day long
This, is DEPRESSION
LIFE'S aggressive Regression
I had to seek help to start any progression...
Depression makes you feel as though you're life has been ENGULFED, CORRUPTED...
Instead of being a life LIVED it becomes
A life INTERRUPTED
Unsculpted
Unscripted
Uncrafted
So fast it...
takes my breath away
But I want it to stay
Go on to fight another day
I'll see you...
but only in the natural course of events I won't assist but be in DEFENSE...
of
this LIFE
interrupted though it may be
inside lives a warrior that more reflects the real me
the fight continues
In my war to be free
Although we've never officially been introduced...
you feel like an old friend
We seem to meet when things fall apart
in the world, in my life, my heart
so many feelings tumbling all over each other...
don't know where to really start
Even the beginning was dimming
Survivor of a predator's sinning
Carried that shadow of burden for years
Didn't know how to shake the fears and good God the tears
I drew to what I knew
Education, writing, advanced learning
the only quench to this insatiable yearning
to know more
Beyond what THEY teach
Beyond what THEY preach
But then I can't seem to forget-the sinning of that predator
playing over in my mind like a
never-ending movie projector
Flashbacks would catch me off guard in the middle of anything-
happy or sad
those haunting memories made EVERYTHING feel so damn bad...
AND, life goes on...
AND, I try to cope
And most times feel lost, lonely and like there's no hope
Relationships, kids, and other dynamics
Life, is a hell of a thing to happen to a person...lays shit on real thick...
All this stuff piling up, sends my thoughts rumbling
Can't think straight
I'm now existing NOT living
I'm really NOTHING
My mind, scattered
my LIFE battered
I arrived at the point where NOTHING really mattered
My existence is missing both rhythm and rhyme
To not exist sounds better
all I have to do is commit to a time
To end my life, is my solution
Put a permanent end to any evolution
At war with THIS horrible intrusion
Feelings of FAILURE that won't go away
what could possibly be the cause?
then,
WAIT, pause
and by PAUSE
I mean STOP
More feeling of doom and despair than NOT
How did I get to THIS place?
This unforgivable dark space
Where OVER and over and over again
I need to see DEATH'S face
This ain't no monkey on my back
this here is King Kong
Shaking me vigorously every day
all day long
This, is DEPRESSION
LIFE'S aggressive Regression
I had to seek help to start any progression...
Depression makes you feel as though you're life has been ENGULFED, CORRUPTED...
Instead of being a life LIVED it becomes
A life INTERRUPTED
Unsculpted
Unscripted
Uncrafted
So fast it...
takes my breath away
But I want it to stay
Go on to fight another day
I'll see you...
but only in the natural course of events I won't assist but be in DEFENSE...
of
this LIFE
interrupted though it may be
inside lives a warrior that more reflects the real me
the fight continues
In my war to be free
Published 13th May 2023
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13th May 2023 2:38pm
It takes courage to speak from the darkest traumas of our lives that echo outward, sometimes seeming to poison everything. The raw candor of this and pure emotion is resonant and meaningful.
13th May 2023 5:06pm
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14th May 2023 8:55am
Well thank you and how awesome you are! I really appreciate that and yes I am back and I am back with a fiery fury-dropping the pen like never before and hopefully moving into maybe the novel realm soon-so stay tuned and thank you so much for reading! 😘🙏🙏🙏❤️
27th Sep 2023 9:01pm
Good piece
Sharing what is real at heart for me is the way to heal, for bad times often comes and no matter how loud are our cries the only thing that lightens the heavy load on our shoulders is finding a way to talk about our issues and try to find a way out the sorrow circle. And having people like you really helps a lot. Thanks for sharing
Sharing what is real at heart for me is the way to heal, for bad times often comes and no matter how loud are our cries the only thing that lightens the heavy load on our shoulders is finding a way to talk about our issues and try to find a way out the sorrow circle. And having people like you really helps a lot. Thanks for sharing
2nd Dec 2023 7:49am
Thank you for reading and just remember always and for everyone no matter what life hands you there's always TOMORROW so stick around to see what that brings I appreciate you 🙏🏽
