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Out There, In Here
It feels
Everytime I go out there
Into the waking world
The external world
Around others
Around you
My anxiety
It comes back
Stronger
Than the time before
Especially after
Always ending up alone
It likes to come back
A thousand fold
It never matters
What happened
Always
I could be having a good time
With those I choose
To be in my company
All the while
Feeling a tremendous amount
Of anxiety and abuse
Even when a moment of calm
May arise
There it goes again
Anxiety is in my mist
Being around others
Oh how I love it so
Yet anxiety
Has attached itself to me
It won't let go
Like a thousand leeches
Panic arises
Don't know what else to do
But go out there now
And put on a facade to....
Everytime I go out there
Into the waking world
The external world
Around others
Around you
My anxiety
It comes back
Stronger
Than the time before
Especially after
Always ending up alone
It likes to come back
A thousand fold
It never matters
What happened
Always
I could be having a good time
With those I choose
To be in my company
All the while
Feeling a tremendous amount
Of anxiety and abuse
Even when a moment of calm
May arise
There it goes again
Anxiety is in my mist
Being around others
Oh how I love it so
Yet anxiety
Has attached itself to me
It won't let go
Like a thousand leeches
Panic arises
Don't know what else to do
But go out there now
And put on a facade to....
Published 6th Apr 2023
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Anonymous
6th Apr 2023 7:58pm
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Wow Black.... you touched my heart so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. A thousand times thank you. You always hear my voice so clearly it seems. It means the world to me. You just have NO idea, how much your words truly mean to me, and are one of the reasons I have been writing more recently actually. When you said "You have such a unique voice and I can't wait to see what else you create. Keep writing and sharing your truth with the world." A light in me shined super bright. It was like....you delivered the most important words to me there. That's all I ever wanted to really hear. I wanted someone(s) to TRULY recognize my voice. I've always felt so unheard. You have no idea. This is the first time in my life, I have felt truly and deeply heard thank you so much again. I can't thank you enough. You give me motivation to write more. I won't stop...💜
13th Apr 2023 9:57pm
Recipe for anti-anxiety
1 Full Cup Certainty
Certainty may be acquired by surrendering to your soul desire
listening to every moment and being truthful to yourself and own it
1/2 Cup Courage
Courage is found when you're no longer bound to serving the sound of some other clown.
Pinch of Salt
For flavor.
1 Full Cup Certainty
Certainty may be acquired by surrendering to your soul desire
listening to every moment and being truthful to yourself and own it
1/2 Cup Courage
Courage is found when you're no longer bound to serving the sound of some other clown.
Pinch of Salt
For flavor.
