Dear God

Dear God
Here I am saying to my self will he forgive me again?
Another session on my knees saying please forgive my sin
Here I am saying dear god do I have a soul?
Why can’t I be your beautiful servant.
So many regrets so many mistakes
What kind of  entity can accept someone like me
Are you up there? Did you finally realize im a fallin sheep gone astray?
Dear God
Please help me I am so broken.
You made me so  beautiful and rare at life’s starting line, what have I done to your  beautiful child?
The scars, the blood, the chemicals, sin after sin after sin.
Dear God
I bow my head to you and say is there room up there for me?
Can this rugged girl be saved?
Dear God
I’ve thought so much of what your plan might be for me
I’ve thought so much with no avail
Dear God
Lead me in the path you have destined  for me
I have no idea where I may be going
I am so scared
Dear God
Please come with me