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maybe i am // too much
i pick my skin until i bleed
shut my eyes so i can’t see
how bad i look, but i hear them say
fat, disgusting, ugly, get away
maybe i am
maybe i am a problem
maybe i am my own death
maybe i am a person without depth
and all i do is hate myself
for everything that i am not
too much
too fat
too loud
too ill
too sad
too negative
too dramatic
all i hear
all i see
is what is disliked
is what is too much
how can i stop hating myself
stop hurting myself
in order to be liked
by people i don’t like
by myself
shut my eyes so i can’t see
how bad i look, but i hear them say
fat, disgusting, ugly, get away
maybe i am
maybe i am a problem
maybe i am my own death
maybe i am a person without depth
and all i do is hate myself
for everything that i am not
too much
too fat
too loud
too ill
too sad
too negative
too dramatic
all i hear
all i see
is what is disliked
is what is too much
how can i stop hating myself
stop hurting myself
in order to be liked
by people i don’t like
by myself
Published 15th Mar 2023
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16th Mar 2023 1:51pm
Your words share a view on yourself, which is not only terrifying but also so unbelievable common these days. And I don’t mean that to hurt you, no, I want to tell you that you’re not alone in this world.
And even if you feel disgusting or ugly or as a disappointment, make yourself clear that you’re not able to see yourself how you really are, because all one can do is staring at him or herself in the mirror. I’ve seen beautiful, wonderful people having distorted reflections and feeling bad about them when they certainly didn’t need to. You definitely belong to them. You’re wonderful and by far a more interesting person than everyone else desperately trying to look like the girl next to them. I look at them and I see a shallow body which I will soon forget. I look at you and I see a remarkable person with a truly beautiful smile, that will stick in my mind forever. Don’t let the mirror dictate your life. You’re far better than you might think.
There’s millions of us just like you.
And even if you feel disgusting or ugly or as a disappointment, make yourself clear that you’re not able to see yourself how you really are, because all one can do is staring at him or herself in the mirror. I’ve seen beautiful, wonderful people having distorted reflections and feeling bad about them when they certainly didn’t need to. You definitely belong to them. You’re wonderful and by far a more interesting person than everyone else desperately trying to look like the girl next to them. I look at them and I see a shallow body which I will soon forget. I look at you and I see a remarkable person with a truly beautiful smile, that will stick in my mind forever. Don’t let the mirror dictate your life. You’re far better than you might think.
There’s millions of us just like you.
