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a little self loathing
Some days I hate you
As much as I hate myself
Some days I hate you more
I hate our collective weaknesses
I hate the way we avoid the world
then colour ourselves
with lonely brush strokes
and pretend the world
has done us some wrong
when we are the individual
orchestrators of our own dysfunctions
I hate that we do this to ourselves
and each other
My hate has never been about you
it's always been about me
and my inability to find my way
the only thing you've ever done
is be a mirror
As much as I hate myself
Some days I hate you more
I hate our collective weaknesses
I hate the way we avoid the world
then colour ourselves
with lonely brush strokes
and pretend the world
has done us some wrong
when we are the individual
orchestrators of our own dysfunctions
I hate that we do this to ourselves
and each other
My hate has never been about you
it's always been about me
and my inability to find my way
the only thing you've ever done
is be a mirror
Published 8th Mar 2023
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8th Mar 2023 00:24am
“like” seems the wrong word for a poem like this, perhaps I would rather say, “well done.”
8th Mar 2023 1:16am
Indie, the way you bleed on a page is always stunning. The things we hate the most about others are the very things we see most in ourselves… and fuck if that’s not a dick kick some days.
You’re amazing and I adore you.
You’re amazing and I adore you.
8th Mar 2023 2:19am
8th Mar 2023 3:20am
Dear I,
This has so much meaning. You capture that mirror imaging so amazingly and the sadness and frustration of inner turmoil. I admire the honesty and raw emotion of this piece. I can only imagine what it took to write.
Amazing. H🌷
This has so much meaning. You capture that mirror imaging so amazingly and the sadness and frustration of inner turmoil. I admire the honesty and raw emotion of this piece. I can only imagine what it took to write.
Amazing. H🌷
8th Mar 2023 1:42pm
Can't tell you how much I love this. The fact that you have the self-awareness to acknowledge this speak volumes. We can spend our lives transferring onto others and becoming mirrorballs of misery. It's possible to step outside the vicious circle and become at peace. Rob
