Atmospheric shaving

To this fear I am alluding  
Catastrophic lies colluding  
Empty flesh  
So ever soothing  
Whittle down my hardened core  
 
Esoteric feelings  
When the wisdom’s unappealing  
Drawn in motion  
always reeling  
Adrift in simulated lore  
 
Lay judgement on a sinner  
To remake his spirit thinner  
Always fraught  
Never a winner  
With a mind in constant war
 
Atmospheric shaving  
Expressive thoughts all misbehaving  
Melodies  
a constant craving  
Shape the surface  
I implore  
  
 My histrionic maker  
Is a forceful  
presence shaker  
It took awhile  
To truly take her  
Beyond the broken door  
 
I’ll be closing the incision  
To complete my best revision  
Quality  
A viable vision  
Simmering  
and wanting more  
 
I have a wisened essence  
A myriad of common presence  
Structuring the effervescence  
Adopt a spirit  
I adore