Baptism

Hotter this time
So much hotter

Relief in the burn
The spike of the nerves
Sets me free

Carry the whole fucking thing up the hill
Just to suffer the next

When it rains...
That's what they say
Isn't it?

So many apologies
So many condolences
Still went through it alone
Didn't I?

They all burn anymore
Tears of anger
Of love, betrayed...lost
Of rage

Hotter this time
Melting into oblivion

It really is the loss
That sets you free
Freedom is so very painful
And lonely

Lost upon the words
I speak so clearly
Wash it away with a glance

It seems so distant
In the way
You let me go

Silence is the void in which
Our unspoken words
Wonder why we never tried

Growing colder
I step back
And breathe

Just a breath away
Another excuse, another judgement
Another lie to see

This is my life
And you are dead to me