falsity

you had eyes like a homecoming      
that i find myself      
living in the wake of      
     
i never got to know you really      
so my brain filled in the gaps      
untruth sutures      
a fiction mixed with snippets of you      
i know what your favorite color is      
what your friends are like      
how you take your coffee      
     
but i know  
none of these things      
     
i don't know you  
 
and I'm not sure  
if i even know myself