Jynx

Can you keep up with me,  
See if you can roll with me  
I'm pretty quick, nothing to prove  
Or gain or lose  
Sometimes I get shy, cuz I'm unfocused, lonely old despair, again I got too stoned  
Fall into intricate fractals and nuances  
My journal is a portal home  
I realize now that I'm 37, how "autistic" I maybe am  
People scare me more than actual demons could  
And I miss my dad sometimes  
Under all them addictions, distractions and darkness  
He was a super good guy  
And I was the light in his life  
What more could a lonely little girl ask for but  
They needed him more  
So I let them have him  
I was brave and didn't complain  
A lot of times I would pretend that nothing bad ever happened  
That I lived out back in the jungle and the creek  
Behind the fence of my mom's back yard  
With little people
Plant people
Wind people
Blades of grass people
And I was free and no one called my name  
And if they did I changed my name anyway  
Jynx is what they call me.  
I Rollerblade on neon rainbow sunsets  
Headphones mixed tape singing around  
"Hello hello hello"  
The world is mine and I feel sweet and i feel kind  
Like I wanna shine and give it my everything  
My blessings and loveliness, friendship for all I can see  
And nothing can stop me from having fun and being free  
Nothing but the street lamps that come on  
As dusk to begins to set  
I head back to my place of rest  
My room was watched by many heads  
I dont know why they kept such close eyes on me  
I stayed awake, I prayed every night  
I am sure some protecting force kept me safe  
Sad that she never came to pick me up  
Out of my prison bed and the terror I saw  
Out the window on the roofs of the houses  
Looking at me with them radioactive green eyes  
When I called and cried and tried escaped  
Time and time again its always best  
To run away before someone leaves you  
And I'm quick on my rollerblades.  
I can't hear anyone call my real name  
Under these headphones  
I'm singing all the words and all the chords  
I am my own world  
I'm not a boy or a girl  
I'm a pink squirl  
And my name is Jynx.