A Second Chance

My light was extinguished quickly like a flicker, or a spark
But I was to blind to see that I was walking in the dark
Comparing a restless life to a walk in the park
All because I allowed Sin to enter into my heart

Determined to have my cake and eat it too
Convinced no one would know, not even you
Giving myself powers that I couldn't understand
Declaring myself beyond a mortal man

For I was without unity, bereft
Spiritually separated from self
Settling for whatever was left
At times even praying for death

Having decided I was buried to deep to ever see light
No matter what I tried nothing ended right
Seeking a soothsayer, forgetting prayer
I took a wrong turn and now I'm filled with fear

Yes I was walking a Sinner's path
When I met Sin
Willing to accept anything
Even this new friend

Sin looked at me
And I returned her stare
I was offered to share a Sinner's lair
All because she knew that I didn't care

I became Sin's husband, and Sin my wife
Declaring ourselves to each other for life
For in Sin's eyes I could do no wrong
And I was also there to urge her on

But upon Sin's bed I had a dream
The world was coming to an end
Or so it seemed
And this was when I discovered we weren't a team

I saw my ship going down
With no dry land around
I saw myself pointing a finger, well Sin was too
It's really hard to blame someone that also blames you

She declared, "you can't blame me
For I had no power over thee
Before I asked you were ready to give
When asked for your life, you didn't want to live

" I could never have achieved the level that I did
Without a willing subject doing my bid
Although forewarned of rules to obey
You still chose to travel my way"

I decided that she was right and I was wrong
I made myself weak while making her strong
Now lokking back at where I went wrong
I don't know how we ever got along

Along with this realization came the light
I now know that my days were perpetual nights
I now see that the further I moved away
Even the constant sinning couldn't hold the light at bay

You tried to help by placing the right obstacles in my path
Friends even tried to dig me out on your behalf
But I was on a mission that had to run it's course
I never saw trouble coming, I never knew the source

But you had faith in me
Even though I was disgracing thee
Sometimes even debating thee
You just never forsaked me