Ominous dreams

Vision of the future
Through ominous dreams
Death beyond death
To see what i've seen

It's what i'll be missing
After i'm gone
That sends a sharp chill
Straight through to my bones

Years in the future
Boys all grown
Outside in the yard
With kids of their own

And my beautiful wife
Tears of joy in her eyes
Standing hand in hand
With someone else by her side

And I'm just a memory
That's fuzzy and gray
They try to cling to
Before my sickness took me away

I awake with a startle
Sweat falling from my brow
Poured that bottle down the sink
And my head i did bow

God please take control
For i have none
Take this burden from me
Your will be done

My kids and my wife
I love with all my heart
Wash this addiction from me
For I need a clean start

11-12-22