In this drunken state

In this drunken state I'm in      
Smoking summoning the beast with in      
A demon that lies asleep within      
A sin    
Like seeds that sprouts  deep with in      
Seeds of discord      
That's like a sword
that penetrates my heart      
Unleashing all the demons Locked away within      
     
I'm in this drunken state
for the sake of pain and love      
I trusted her      
Now I find myself forsaking love      
All because of her      
Showing her all the love and affection      
And she's not even in my section  
If I could
 I would do self disection
Who needs a heart feeling  this way  
because of the lack of appreciation      
 It has me in this place      
In the drunken state I'm in.